Att vara sj\u00e4lvmordsben\u00e4gen handlar ofta mindre om en verklig vilja att d\u00f6 och mer om en k\u00e4nsla att man inte l\u00e4ngre orkar leva som man har det.
Det kan k\u00e4nnas som att livet krymper – s\u00e5dant som en g\u00e5ng betydde n\u00e5got tappar f\u00e4rg och mening, allt b\u00f6rjar kretsa kring en inre tyngd.
M\u00e5nga upplever en stark psykisk sm\u00e4rta.
Tankarna kan bli h\u00e5rda och upprepande, och det kan k\u00e4nnas som att man sitter fast utan n\u00e5gon v\u00e4g ut.
Framtiden kan k\u00e4nnas st\u00e4ngd, inte f\u00f6r att man vet att inget kan bli b\u00e4ttre, utan f\u00f6r att man inte kan f\u00f6rest\u00e4lla sig hur det skulle kunna bli det.
En djup ensamhet \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 vanlig.
Man kan vara bland andra men \u00e4nd\u00e5 k\u00e4nna sig helt avskuren.
Det kan k\u00e4nnas som att ingern skulle f\u00f6rst\u00e5, eller att det man b\u00e4r p\u00e5 \u00e4r f\u00f6r tungt eller skamligt att s\u00e4tta ord p\u00e5.
Vissa k\u00e4nner mest tomhet – som om k\u00e4nslorna har st\u00e4ngts ut.
Andra upplever ist\u00e4llet ett intensivt inre tryck: rastl\u00f6shet, \u00e5ngest eller panik.
Enkla saker kan d\u00e5 bli \u00f6verv\u00e4ldigande och vardagen kr\u00e4ver mer energi \u00e4n vanligt.
Tankarna f\u00f6r\u00e4ndras ofta i ett s\u00e5dant tillst\u00e5nd.
Perspektivet blir smalare, problem k\u00e4nns permanenta och l\u00f6sningar osynliga.
Det kan ocks\u00e5 finnas en start sj\u00e4lvkritik – tankar om att vara en b\u00f6rda eller inte vara v\u00e4rd hj\u00e4lp.
Samtidigt finns det ofta en ambivalens.
En del av en vill bort fr\u00e5n sm\u00e4rtan, medan en annan del fortfarande vill bli sedd, f\u00f6rst\u00e5dd eller f\u00e5 det l\u00e4ttare.
Den inre konflikten kan vara v\u00e4ldigt utmattande.
I grunden handlar det ofta om en djup tr\u00f6tthet – en k\u00e4nsla av att ha k\u00e4mpat f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge och burit f\u00f6r mycket.
Inte n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigtvis en l\u00e4ngtan om att f\u00f6rsvinna, utan en l\u00e4ngtan efter att f\u00e5 vila fr\u00e5n det som g\u00f6r ont.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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